Why I Am Not An Atheist

Wednesday, July 18th, 2012 by Gabriel Thy
Bertrand Russell

Bertrand Russell

Heartwarming as many atheists are, there is something spooky about believing in the power of men to change the world once reviewing the history of men in power. Especially when those who believe such a godless creed are usually busying trying to tear down all that mankind has thus far produced. But such lunacy exists. And often the results of this atheistic lunacy are permanent. But let’s regroup our articles of faith while we analyze the following confession and testimony of one of the comment warriors posting at the always provocative Red State:

As a former leftist and atheist myself, I must confess that after having converted to Christianity, I finally realized how much faith I had to have to believe what I believed. I had to believe that life sprang from non-life, all by itself, and only happened once in history. I had to believe that mutations, normally a liability to any species, always redounded to the good concerning evolution. I had to believe that in spite of the law of entropy, wherein every system, if left to itself, goes from order to randomness, life somehow went from randomness to order.

Does Russell have a point? Should we not consider that since the Kingdom of God is indeed locked up inside us, ready for release, as Mashiach stipulated, then why should not the Most High speak and act among us…
Always the restless consumer of fact and fiction, I had to respond to this notion of perfected teleology. If I believe that while a building or a car will rot and fall apart if left uncared for, but that a gene pool will become ever more complex and advanced, yes, perhaps, I had to believe in man evolving from apes, even though there is a dearth of evidence that perhaps we did not. Despite thousands of fossils of dinosaurs, Mastodons, pre-historic mammals, curiously no conclusive “missing link” has been found. One would think that if millions of people evolved from thousands of apes, there would be ample evidence of transitional species the world over. I also had to believe that the Bible is just a fabricated fairy tale, not a history, but a fabrication of men who told jokes to win the control of their populations, but while the earth is almost certainly 4.6 billion years old based on….well, no one is really sure, but it’s consensus, so it must be so, then I must be someone who interprets the Bible a bit differently than some of these whacky evangelists on the front lines. And I am. I realized that I just don’t have that much faith in science or doctrinaire fundamentalist religion.

Reading any science book, the clever can always find gaping holes in scientific secularism. I’m fairly intelligent and roughly well-read, and just can’t fancy Dawkins and his type. His books, among other popular science authors, sit on my shelf as evidence of my own cunning desire to own my own path of understanding, to familiarize myself with my own mind, and to settle my own beliefs system into a set of justified correlations, But no matter how much gravitas I give to these matters, I fail to understand how such men of science make such gigantic leaps of faith while leaving out first cause and the electric buzz of the nervous system driving life [in their postulates]. The silent conspiracy festering within the scientific community resists any discussion of these gaping holes. Occasionally, an honest scientist will go rogue and admit to this conspiracy, admits to gaping holes in the official story, and offers startling news that many scientists believe in God to some degree. They also purport that this conspiracy of silence is rigidly enforced. Careers depend on this code of silence. Before we insist on any evolutionary strategies and tactics, we must account for the origin of life and intelligence itself.

Omni Magazine

     Omni Magazine 1978-1998

Imagine the excitement I felt when I read in Omni or one of those science rags of the day, that confirmed my hold held suspicions of a code of silence, terrific peer pressure, and a misty trail cover-up that sketched the science community’s penchant for ignoring the obvious flaw in their work. To surprise of these scientists there is still no conclusive data that slams the door shut on the notion of a God, a Creator, an original, unexplainable, all-powerful force that nature only emulates, but does not own, control, but cannot fathom in a universe yet not seen. only conjecture, materialistic or otherwise. In that very same issue of Omni, if memory serves, was an article announcing that scientists had just discovered that for some reason they could not yet explain, observation of an experiment seems to change it ever so measureably.

Let’s examine an example that mathematician and theoretical scientist Bertrand Russell made in his book called Why I Am Not A Christian, namely, little old church ladies who claim to honor God for His Power to protect his own, but are the first to hide behind the police powers, just as America the Christian nation believes in its own defense budget and weaponry more than the power of God to win the battle against godless communism and other vulgar disruptions to the peace.

Does Russell have a point? Should we not consider that since the Kingdom of God is indeed inside us, as Mashiach stipulated, then why should not the Most High speak and act among us, and not simply be there step by step to heap a load of rules and regulations upon us, only to take leave of us in times of danger…

This is an interesting point. One I’m sure C.S. Lewis has covered somewhere in his many books. My Lewis is a bit rusty, and my Lewis library a bit thin, but I would like to explore this question a bit more in another post. Is the KOG merely a protective wall, a mighty fortress where our spirit lives and dwells in the realm of thoughts and emotions as long as the physical world exists on its own terms. Or is the Kingdom Of God dwelling within us something else, something more, that is to say, something less psychological (as powerful as that function is), and something more supernatural, personal, transcendent on ALL levels, not merely the spiritual? As to whom wins or loses, sinks or swims, lives or dies in a bus crash, a fierce tornado, a heart attack, a rugby ballgame, all of which inevitably lead to the obligatory tokenism of self-aware thankfulness that one is not among the perished, the lost, the losers, leaving aside the notion of survivor guilt for the moment…

Of course, the religious fetish for turning on words, saturating themselves, with seven shades of meaning, commanding crowds with their peripetetic powers of exegesis and hermeneutics, is a sad onerous way to prove the salvation and liberty of God’s people, one and all.




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One Response to “Why I Am Not An Atheist”

  1. I’ve often stated that I feel more like an efficient atheist around a hardcore garden variety Christian and more like an embattled well-researched Christian around an flaming atheist. So I wonder. Does this make me a wobbler? A gobbler, profound, profane, a flowing bucket of vomit, a sound hypocrite, nothing but gas, or just plain irrelevant when it comes to these matters of church and exegesis?

    Do I believe wholeheartedly in Meshiach, the Christ, the Nazarene as the ONLY son of God? Yes and no. Do I believe this man to be special. Yes. More special than me? Yes. Do I believe he is the sole caretaker of humanity, or the organizing force of molecules and spirit. Yes.

    Then in what do I not believe about Meshiach, the Christ, the Nazarene? I’m not sure that he is on a pare with God. The Trinity as understood by Christendom has always felt a bit fishy to me. Do I deny the Trinity as completely as do the Jehovah’s Witnesses and Islam?

    I’m not sure. The holy spirit does not seem to have made men infallible, or to have conveyed any noticeable distinctions to individual morality on the whole different from others who lived before or after that supposed unleashing of the holy spirit on the day of pentecost to followers of Christ in terms of the macro. Instead, it only seems to address that part of human nature that requires the greenlight from another authoritative source in order to convince himself, or others of his own authority. Seen from the micro, a powerful psychological awakening may actually take place, but any quantifiable specificity is existential and lost to the whole range of human responses generated by personal experience and educational techniques within the framework of one’s social and personal life, for one can only imagine that even chemical brain shifts are hardly proof of anything more exceptional than say, schizophrenia.

    At the end of the day, I DO believe in an organizing principle, or quantum force. That much is obvious, from the greatest to the least of us, and it is this instinct within men and women, this clinging need for order (even among the sloppiest and the most wicked among us), that sustains the very notion of civilization outside the gates of Eden. Both the butterfly effect of chaos theory and the 2nd law of thermodynamics fall within the character of God’s relationship to humanity detailed in the Judaic scriptures.


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